Again, that's not your fault. What Yuusuke chooses to do has nothing to do with you. It's his choice. It's his choice to be a douchebag. He could always just not do it, but he chose to do it anyway.
[ Terry wipes the wet trail on Sasuke's face with his thumb. ]
Be kinder to yourself... it's always easy to look at the negative side of things and let it affect you, but it's getting through them, learning from your mistakes, is what matters more. Don't tell me you got all the way here just to think like this again. It's not impossible for things to change about yourself, Sasuke... as long as you allow yourself to.
[It's hard to move with his face being held, but he's still trying to blink back the tears.]
I don't... even remember the last time I cried.
[It's a little sullen. Reaching the point of tears like this after so many years of explicitly trying not to, one of the few acts of rebellion he had against his family, against Yuusuke.
[ He remembers when Sasuke was younger... It's a little sad to think about how Sasuke is now compared to back then. ]
He can't hurt you while you're here, Sasuke. Even if there's some space-time warp that brings him here again, I won't let him. So, while he's not here, you can be free to express yourself however you want.
...Even if I never see him again as long as I'm here, I'm not sure I know how to any more.
[Which is super pathetic to admit to, which he realizes. But his emotions have been on lockdown for so long, it's like everything's permanently muted.]
You're still young... you have time. As long as you strive to learn how to convey your thoughts and feelings, step by step, a little at a time, it'll be okay. I'll always cheer you on.
[ But you can't go outside while you're sick. That's banned. ]
You'll have progress if you allow yourself to. Like right now, you were able to tell me all those things and cried. See? You're doing well already.
[ Like Akira. And literally everyone else that's claimed to have a single brain cell. Terry has been struggling with moderation for so, so long but at least he's working on it... with mixed success. ]
You'll be fine, Sasuke. If anything, I know how hardworking you can be.
[ Sasuke works himself to the point of collapse and he doesn't believe that he's hardworking. Dani, what the fuck. Sasuke needs some love shoved into his head.
Anyway, Terry stops trying to pester Sasuke. He's the one forcing him to rest after all. ]
I brought food too, so let me know when you're hungry after sleeping.
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It's going to become quickly evident that he was crying a little. There's a wet trail from the corner of one eye to the side of his face.]
But... if I didn't mess with Yuusuke, he wouldn't have gotten angry enough to mess with her to get back at me.
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[ Terry wipes the wet trail on Sasuke's face with his thumb. ]
Be kinder to yourself... it's always easy to look at the negative side of things and let it affect you, but it's getting through them, learning from your mistakes, is what matters more. Don't tell me you got all the way here just to think like this again. It's not impossible for things to change about yourself, Sasuke... as long as you allow yourself to.
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Am I... really able to change?
[It doesn't feel like it.]
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[ Terry smiles a little, warm and gentle. ]
You can. Also, it's okay to cry. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
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I don't... even remember the last time I cried.
[It's a little sullen. Reaching the point of tears like this after so many years of explicitly trying not to, one of the few acts of rebellion he had against his family, against Yuusuke.
...But then again, neither are here, are they?]
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It's alright... it's not like you have to cry every day. It gets tiring really fast.
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Mm. I know. I used to cry a lot as a kid.
[He was a lot more expressive back then, as Terry might recall. A big crybaby too, as a result.]
After a while... I didn't want Yuusuke to get that satisfaction anymore. So... it's been a really long time.
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He can't hurt you while you're here, Sasuke. Even if there's some space-time warp that brings him here again, I won't let him. So, while he's not here, you can be free to express yourself however you want.
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[Which is super pathetic to admit to, which he realizes. But his emotions have been on lockdown for so long, it's like everything's permanently muted.]
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[ But you can't go outside while you're sick. That's banned. ]
You'll have progress if you allow yourself to. Like right now, you were able to tell me all those things and cried. See? You're doing well already.
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He releases a shaky sigh at that.]
You really don't want me to cry as much as I used to.
[He's. Trying to have a (very dry) sense of humor about that, because it helps him feel even slightly less ashamed of everything.]
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[ Like Akira. And literally everyone else that's claimed to have a single brain cell. Terry has been struggling with moderation for so, so long but at least he's working on it... with mixed success. ]
You'll be fine, Sasuke. If anything, I know how hardworking you can be.
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...I think I need a little more sleep.
[Rare words indeed from this kid.]
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Anyway, Terry stops trying to pester Sasuke. He's the one forcing him to rest after all. ]
I brought food too, so let me know when you're hungry after sleeping.
[ If not, he's gonna force feed him. ]
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I'm not hungry yet.
[He probably won't be for quite some time so yeah, Terry might just need to force it at some point. I'm so sorry Terry.]
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[ He will absolutely shove food into Sasuke's mouth when he still says he's not hungry after his nap. ]